A Day with M. Episode 2

" You'll always be the princess or even the queen of my dreams. "

Around 7 a.m. I was awaken by the sound of my cellphone's ringing tone. Mario was calling. I hurriedly answered his phone call.

Me : Hi Mario. I'm sorry I was so tired last night I just woke up.

Mario : That's okay baby. I can always wait for you even for forever. Anyway, I'm here infront of your hotel waiting. Get dressed and we'll spend the whole day together.

Me : ( While on twitterpated feelings. ) Oh Mario, your making me smile early this morning. Thank you. I'll be downstairs in no time.

Mario : It's my duty to always make the one I love smile. Can't wait to see my princess.

I then ended up the call and hurriedly took a shower. I decided to wear a skinny jeans, an oversized long-sleeved white top and wedges. Grabbed on the chanel pouch he sent me together with the Hermes bag and put on the D&G shades he gave me last night and huriedly went downstairs. He was with his car right across the front of the hotel.

He waved at me.

Me : I'm sorry to keep you waiting here, why didn't you wait for me at the hotel lobby.

Mario : I can't leave the car here baby. I didn't bring any driver along so we can spend the whole day together alone.

I gave him a timid-looking smile. He grabbed my hands and smiled back.

Mario : Why don't we leave the car behind let's commute. It'll be more fun. What do you think baby?

Me : That's okay with me. Anyway, I wanted to see every corner of Bangkok and we can't do that if were bringing the car along.

Mario : Alright, just wait for me here and I'll be back in a minute. I'll just leave the car in the parking area of the hotel.

We took a taxi to the Siam Square. He let me feel the local slice of life in his hometown. The whole morning was spent touring the whole area of the Siam Square. The weather is not hot, though it's sunny. Just simply perfect for walking under the sun. He was holding my hands the whole time which made me feel more secured.

We had lunch at Amontre Restaurants in  Fraser Suites. I ordered the Rocket Salad while he has the Toasted Focaccia with Pesto.

Mario : Is that all you're going to eat? No wonder why your thin. I'll order more and you have to eat it all okay?

He demanded while smiling.

Mario : I want you to gain a little. You look malnourished.

Me : You are so mean.

I told him while looking straight in the eyes.

Mario : I was just joking baby. I don't care about how you look because I know you're more than that. I love you.

Which melted my heart for the nth time again. We had a very heavy meal that time.

Mario : Another friend of mine wants to meet you tonight. Do you know Pchy?

Me : Your partner in the movie Love of Siam.

Mario : Yes. I told him you coming so he wanted to see you tonight. We'll have dinner together with some other friends. I wanted to let them know that I already found you. But of course, it will depend on your approval.

While looking at him shyly.

Me : Mario? Arent this too early for this kind of stuff? I mean, you barely know me, neither do I to you?

Mario : Baby, don't  hesitate about this. I know from the moment I saw you, I know I found the one I've waited to be with, forever.

Me : I like you. I'm sure about that but I don't know if I'm in lonve with you.

Mario : Don't worry about it baby. As I told you before, don't be in a hurry with your feelings for me. I just wanted to let you know how I feel.

Me : Your kind. Thank you for everything.

Mario : Not yet, a lot is more to come.

After lunch we headed to the floating market where he bought presents for my parents and friends. He called up his PA to bring it to my hotel. Later that evening, we had dinner with his friends at The Celadon in Silom.

Here's the rest of the group with Mario. He then introduced me to them.

Mario : Guys, I'd like you to meet the one I'm in love with, Megs.

Pchy : ( While reaching his hand for a handshake. ) Nice to meet you. My friend is lucky to have met you first.

I was blushing the whole time, while he was saying this.

Pchy : Megs, my friend here has been bragging about you and well I guess everything he said was true.

Me : I don't know what he told you but thank you guys for the warm welcome.

I smiled shyly at them. That was such an akward moment yet I'm glad that he has been so proud of just even knowing me. His friends were cool most specially Pchy. We went to the hotel at around 11 PM.

Mario : It'll be your flight later at 2:00 AM. Let's get your things then.

Me : Mario, thanks for the wonderful time. It has been a romantic experience being with you.

Mario : This is just the beginning baby. I should be the one thanking you for coming over on your restday. You don't know how flattered and happy I am that you accepted my invitation. I've got one more thing to give you.

He grabbed my left arm and put on this bracelet.

A whitegold diamond studded bracelet.

Me : Mario, you don't have to give me this expensive bracelet. You don't have to impress me with all of this.

Mario : This are nothing compared to the gift you gave me.

Me : What gift?

Mario : Being with me.

Me : ( Teary eyed. ) I don't even know what you've seen in me but I appreciate all the things and  everything you're doing.

Mario : You're welcome baby. You'll be my princess and my queen forever.

He accompanied me at the airport as I waited for the departure of my flight. Good thing he knows the head of security so he got the privilege to go to the waiting area even.

Mario : Text me once you arrive in Manila. I'll miss you teribbly. I'll be the one to come over next week.

Me : I will. Thanks again for everything and for the wonderful experience.

Mario : I love you baby and I will always will.

Me : I can't say i love you for now Mario, but I like you.

Mario : That's more than enough for now. I'll wait until the day you learn to say you love me too.

I headed then to the gate and bade my farewell smile.

Mario : ( Looking so sadly yet smiling at me. ) I'll miss you so much baby. I'll see you next week in Manila.

Basura...Basura..

Huh? Nasabi ko sa sarili, may basura sa airport ng Bangkok ( BKK ) ? Blagg..

Nahulog ako sa kama. Nyetang basurero yan. Sayang panaginip lang pala. Pero next time Mario, this will be so true.

Til Next Time,

Diosa

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A Day with M.

" All my dreams came true the day that I met you. "

My flight going to Bangkok today arrived at 4:00 PM. After my shift diretso na agad sa airport. We had a little chat through YM a day before the unexpected trip at bigla na lang nyang sinabi na puntahan ko daw sya sa restday ko.

Me : It's just a few days since we started this little conversations. You know that I'm a Filipino and it's against our culture to go out with someone we barely know. And besides my parents are strict. They won't allow me.

Mario : ( Speaking in his broken Thai accent. ) Don't worry about it, let's say this is not a date, this is just a vacation.  And besides, I'm not going to do anything against your culture. I respect you. With your parents, it's all set, I called them up earlier and they agreed. Everything is set baby. Check your e-mail. I already booked you a ticket and I had my appointment cancelled on the time of your flight so I can pick you up at the airport.

Tinignan ko nga ang e-mail ko and goodness he booked me on a First Class Ticket roundtrip with a hotel accomodation in The Peninsula Bangkok.

Me : Thanks Mario, I need to go to work. I'll see you then.

Mario : ( Looking excited. ) I can't wait to see you. I love you.

We ended the conversation. At paglabas ko from the airport, he then hurriedly park his car infront of me.

Nilapitan nya ako and was about to kiss my hands, but I told him whispering.

Me : Mario, stop it were in a public place.

Mario : ( Looking into my eyes. ) I'm sorry baby, I just can't help it. It's the first time I saw you in flesh. I just want to make sure that I'm not dreaming. Because If I am, I don't want to wake up.

Me : ( I smiled at him. ) You're being mushy. Shall we now, please?

Mario : Of course. But before that I have a surprise for you.

He went to the trunk of his car and gave me this.

I looked at him and smiled.

Me : Mario, how am I going to bring it on board when I go back? But that's so sweet. Thank you.

Mario : Don't worry baby, I'll have it shipped. I just wanted you to see it first.

He then looked at me and touched my hair.

Mario : From the first time I saw you on facebook, I promised to myself I'll do everything to make you happy. I don't believe in love at first sight but I guess I'm wrong. The first time I laid my eyes on you, I know from that time on, I love you.

Me : Mario, your being mushy again, let's go then.

He opened the door for me and placed the big bear beside me. He then sat at the passenger's seat and instructed his P.A. to drive us to the hotel. Kinikilig man hindi ko pinahalata sa kanya.

Mario : Baby, I'll have a photo shoot after, would you want me to cancel it so we can have dinner together?

Me : No, don't worry about me, I can wait for you until the shoot is over. Besides I had heavy meal before my flight so I'm still full.

Mario : Baby, nothing is more important than you.

Me : I'll just go home if you insist on that. Let's just do it this way, I can accompany you to the photo shoot, deal?

Mario : ( Holding my Hands ) Thank you for understanding baby. The more that I'm loving you now that you're here.

He then kissed my hand.

A few more minutes and were in the hotel. Naloka ako sa dinatnan ko sa kwarto ko.

Habang nakatayo ako sa harap ng kwarto, hindi makapagsalita sa pagkabigla.

Mario : Did you like it?

Me : You're full of surprises. Thank you. I like it so much.

I was talking to him teary eyed.

Me : Where am I going to sleep now?

I teased.

He then chuckled.

Mario : I'll have it cleaned after. Now you get dressed cause your coming with me as you promised.

Me : Of course, but you have to wait for me at the hotel lobby. It's not good if other people will see us alone in this room.

Mario : I understand.

He then kissed my hand and walked to the elevator.

Mario : I love you baby and I'll miss you.

He muttered before the elevator closes.

I took a quick shower and out on a white shirt and short. I paired it with sneakers. Folded on the sleeves and grabbed the Hermes bag that he sent me the other day.

Me : Let's go.

Mario : Baby, I think we should cancel this photo shoot. I can't take my eyes off you. You look stunning.

As he looked at me from head to foot.

Mario : Your are very pretty. I love you.

He then kissed my hands again.

Me : Mario, how many times will you kiss my hands today.

I said looking at him as I smiled.

Me : If you cancel your photo shoot, I'll just go back to the Philippines. Do your job first okay?

Mario : Your wish is my command, my princess.

On the venue, pinakilala nya ko sa ibang kasamahan nya sa trabaho.

Here are some of the his photos during the shoot.

Mas excited ako bukas sa date namin.

Til Next Time,

Diosa

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Pangarap Ko Ang Ibigin Ka Part 3

" I can't be with you as your boyfriend but It doesn't mean that I don't love you. "

Maaga palang nasa Puerto Galera na sila. May mga kasama si Nathan na mga kaibigan pero nagkumuha sila ng ibang hotel para makapag check-in. Hindi naman madaming tao nung mga panahong yun. Hindi naman peak season ng bakasyon. Semestral Break lang kasi. He promised to himself na gagawin nyang memorable ang araw na yun dahil yun ang una nyang bakasyon na kasama ang taong mahal nya.

They had a late breakfast sa terrace ng kuwarto nila overlooking the beach.

Nathan : Ang sarap talaga ng bakasyon. Maganda ang view nakakawala ng stress.

Bj : Oo nga. Maganda tong kuwartong nakuha natin.

Nathan : I agree. Anong sinabi mo sa Tita mo na mawawala ka for 3 days?

Bj : Sabi ko lang sinama ako ng kaibigan ko sa isang out of town.

Nathan : Buti di ka na inusisa. Sige, kain na tayo.

Pagkatapos ng kunting pahinga, they decided to look around the area. Hindi masyadong mainit nung mga araw na yun just a perfect day for strolling under the sun. Magkasabay silang naglalakad sa dalampasigan.

Bj : Anong sinabi ng mga kaibigan mo nung hindi tayo sumama dun sa hotel nila?

Nathan : Wala naman. Maiintindihan na nila yun.

Bj : Baka kasi mainip ka lang saken kung tayong dalawa lang.

Nathan : Hindi naman siguro. Sa tagal nating di nagkita marami tayong mapag-uusapan. At mamaya naman magkikita-kita ulit tayo dun sa isang bar sa hotel na tinutuluyan nila.

Bj : Salamat sa lahat ha.?

Nathan : Wala yun. Ako dapat ang magpasalamat sayo kasi hanggang ngayon ako pa din ang matalik na kaibigan mo.

Hinawakan ni Bj ang kamay nya kasabay ng isang ngiti. Masaya syang kasama nya ito ngayon. Kung kaya lang nyang pigilan ang oras para mas makasama nya to nang mas matagal. Ginawa nya na sana noon pa. But that's how it is sa isip-isip nya. When good things are happening, time flies by rapidly but in moments that you're hurting it seems that an hour is eternity. Iwinaksi nya ang isiping yun. He will enjoy every moment na kasama nya to.

Kasama ang mga kaibigan nya, nagpunta sila sa isang bar nung gabi ding yun. Hindi na sya masyadong umiinom ngayon pero dahil sa udyok nga mga kaibigan nya, naparami tuloy sya. Tinanong si Bj nung isang kaibigan nyang babae.

Christine : Mahal mo ba tong si Nathan?

Isang tipid na ngiti ang naisagot nito. Sya na ang sumagot sa tanong ng kaibigan.

Nathan : Magkababata lang kami. Ikaw, manahimik ka nga dyan lasing ka na naman.

Biro nya  sa kaibigan.

Christine : Ikaw talaga ang mahal nitong si Nathan, Bj. Kahit dati pa man nung una kaming magkakilala, ikaw lagi ang kinikwento nya pag naguusap-usap kami tungkol sa love life ng isa't-isa.

Bj : Alam ko naman yun.

Namula si Nathan sa pagiinit ng pisngi nya. Buti na lang medyo madilim sa lugar at hindi halata ang pamumula nya. Natuwa sya sa sinabi nito. Dati pa naman na alam nito ang nararamdaman nya para dito. Pero ngayon hindi nya akalaing aaminin nito iyon sa harap ng mga kaibigan nya. Masarap sa pakiramdam.

Nagtuloy ang inuman. Ala-una ng madaling araw nang magpaalam na sila ni Bj na babalik na sa hotel nila. Medyo may tama na ito sa dami ng nainom na alak. Inaalalayan nya ito habang naglalakad sila pabalik sa hotel.

Bj : Nathan, pwede bang dito muna tayo. Maganda ang buwan.

Nathan : Oo nga.

Naupo sila sa dalampasigan na iyon. Animo'y magkasintahan na nagsusuyuan.

Bj : Mahal kita Nathan.

Pumailanlang ang mga salitang yun habang pinagmamasdan nya ang karagatan. Hindi nya alam kung paano sasagutin ang sinabi nito.

Nathan : Salamat.

Ang tangi nyang nasabi. Kinabig sya nito papalapit at hinalikan. Labis na tuwa ang naramdaman nya nung mga oras na yun. Katuparan ng isang panginip na ang tagal nyang inasam na mangyari. Mga salitang ang tagal nyang inantay na marinig mula dito.

Bj : Nathan hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin, pero tandaan mo to mahal kita. Masaya ako pagkasama kita.

Ang kaligayahang nararamdaman nya ay napalitan ng pagkalito.

Nathan : Anong ibig mong sabihin.

Bj : Maniwala ka mahal kita pero hindi pwedeng maging tayo. 

Sa tuwing naalala ni Nathan iyon, hindi nya napipigilan ang sariling mapaiyak. Ngayon habang nakatitig sya sa kawalan sa veranda nila muntik na syang mapahagulgol sa sakit.

Nung gabi ding iyon, hindi nya na nabigyan pa ng pagkakataon ang sariling humingi ng paliwanag. Iniwan nya si Bj sa dalampasigan. Sa hotel ng kaibigan sya tumuloy ng mga oras na yun. Kinabukasan pagdating nya sa hotel nila wala ito. Nakita nya ang isang maliit na stuffed toy na may nakalagay na sulat.

" Salamat sa lahat. Mahal kita pero pasensya na. "

Hindi na nya sinagot maski ang mga tawag nito dati. Sulat man ay di na nya binasa pa. Lahat ng mga sulat nito dinideritso na ng basurahan. Pinilit nya ang sariling kalimutan ito. Lahat ng oras binigay nya sa pag-aaral hanggang sa makatapos at magkaroon ng magandang trabaho. In a short span of time, nagawa nyang maging isang Senior Executive sa isang kilalang Accounting Firm sa bansa. He has everything in the world para maging masaya. He dated a lot of guys and gays pero hindi din nagtatagal ang mga nagiging relasyon nya. Halos lahat ng mga naging relasyon  nya would end in this lines.

" I can't be that someone you've been looking for in a relationship. "

Alam nyang unfair sa mga taong nagmahal sa kanya, pero di nya masisi ang sarili dahil alam nyang nasasaktan lang sya kaya nya nagagawa ang mga bagay kahit di man sadya. Ngayon after 4 years naghahanap sya ng paliwanag sa isang taong alam nyang kaisa-isang maaring magbigay nito. Hindi nya maikakalang mahal nya pa rin ito hanggang ngayon. Pero hindi sya nagbalik para makiusap dito na mahalin sya kundi para tapusin ang isang bagay na matagal nya na sanang tinuldukan.

Kailangan nya yung higit para sa sarili nya. Kailangan nyang buuin ang pagkataong nawasak nung gabing iyon. Hanapin ang sariling matagal ng nawawala dahil ibinigay nya sa isang taong akala nya ay pwede.

Itutuloy.....................

Til Next Time.

Diosa

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Namiss Ko To ng Sobra..

" Hindi ko sinadyang mangyari sayo to, pero may mga bagay na di ko kayang pigilan. "

Ang tagal kung di nakapag-update. Nasira kasi ang gamit ko. Sa kasamaang palad, ang aking Little Angel pa ang nagdulot ng kanyang kapahamakan. Ang dami kong gustong isulat pero mamaya na, matutulog muna ako.

Hello blogging World...I'm back...

Til Next Time,

Diosa

I am Beautiful.

"Anger is like flowing water; there's nothing wrong with it as long as you let it flow. Hate is like stagnant water; anger that you denied yourself the freedom to feel, the freedom to flow; water that you gathered in one place and left to forget. Stagnant water becomes dirty, stinky, disease-ridden, poisonous, deadly; that is your hate. On flowing water travels little paper boats; paper boats of forgiveness. Allow yourself to feel anger, allow your waters to flow, along with all the paper boats of forgiveness. Be human." 

— C. JoyBell C.

Last Thursday night habang papunta kami sa isang gimik session , a friend of mine shared an information na sinabi na naman nung tinutuko ko dun sa isa kong blog entry:

" Get a Life. "

Hindi ko talaga lubos maisip kung bakit ganun sya. We treated each other well bago sya ma-promote pero ngayon, everything went upside down. Parang ibang-ibang tao na sya. Kung ako lang sana walang problema, pero ang idawit nila ang personal na buhay ko sa isang work issue na wala naman to begin with, ibang usapan na yan. Sabi nila wag ko na lang daw pansinin, kaso iba na ito, napaka-unprofessional na ng ginagawa nila. Tama nila dahil dalawa na sila. 

Doon naman sa isang babaeng yun, wala akong personal issues sayo dati. Kahit maraming galit sayo, I would say I am not one of them kasi wala naman tayong masamang tinapay sa isa't -isa pero dahil ngayon na gumawa ka ng issue sa personal kung buhay, pasensyahan tayo, ikaw nauna.

Next time na ako magpopost ng mas mahaba about dito. Buti na lang may nagpapangiti saken ngayon. Ang aking si M.

At si W.

Kailangan talagang isingit ko sila. Mauubos ko na lahat ng letters sa alphabet.  Hala kailangan ko ng matulog may pasok pa mamaya.

Till Next Time,

Diosa

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Pangarap Ko ang Ibigin Ka 2

" Life is not measured by the number of breathes you take but by the number of moments that take you breathe away. "

Nakatayo sa veranda nila si Nathan. Tinitignan ang malawak na bakuran nila. " It has really been a long time. " Sa isip-isip nya. Yet the whole place is still the same. Buhay na buhay pa din ang mga orchids na inaalagaan ng mama nya dati. The place was very relaxing. Naputol ang pagmumuni-muni nya nang tawagan sya ng kanyang mama. 

" Nathan, anak nakahanda na ang almusal. " Tawag ni Evelyn sa kanya, ang kanyang mama.

Nakahanda sa mesa nila sa may hardin ang almusal. Toyo, itlog at champorado. Tamang-tama lang sa isip-isip nya. Matagal na panahon na din syang hindi nakakatikim ng ganito. 

Nathan : Ma, salamat sa almusal. Namiss ko 'to.

Paglalambing nya dito sabay akap.

Evelyn : Oh sya, kumain ka na at baka lumamig pa ang almusal.

Kumustahan sa trabaho at naging buhay nya dun sa Maynila habang kumakain ang pinagusapan nilang mag-ina. Mga pangyayari sa lugar at mga kakilala at sa mga kababata nya. Wala nang umagang yun ang papa nya. Nagkaroon daw ng problema sa isang delivery nila kaya maaga itong napaluwas ng bayan.

Nathan : Ma, si Bj ano nang nangyari sa kanya.

Hindi nya na inantay na may magbukas ng pinto nung araw na napadaan sya sa bahay nito. Nung makita nyang may palabas ng tao, bigla nyang pinara ang paparating na tricycle at dali-dali syang umalis.

Evelyn : Ganun pa din naman. Mas lalong lumalakas ang fruit farm nila. Wala ka bang balita na sa kanya? Di ba malapit kayo sa isa't-isa?

Kung pwede nga lang sabihin nya sa mama nya lahat, sana ginawa nya na. 

Kahit umalis na sya nun sa kanila ang huling gabing yun ang naging dahilan kaya kahit malayo na sila sa isa't-isa ay hindi pa din mawalan ng ugnayan silang dalawa. Text, tawag, chat at e-mails ang naging pag-uusap nila. May isang pagkakataon pa nga nun, ay lumuwas ng Maynila si Bj para magbakasyon at doon sila nagkita. That was when he was in third year. This became the most memorable moment of his life.

They decided to  meet sa isang restaurant first night to have dinner and a little chat. It was more than 3 years na hindi na din sila  nagkikita pero di sila nahuhuli sa balita sa isa't-isa.

Bj : Kumusta naman ang pag-aaral mo dito?

Nathan : As I always tell you, haggard sa dami ng pinapagawa ng mga teachers, pero I know I can do it.

Bj : Sa school ko nga din sa province ganun din. Kinausap ko sina Mama kaso di sila pumayag na dito ako mag-aral.

Nathan : Sayang naman. Hanggang kelan ka naman dito?

Bj : Siguro mga isang linggo lang. School Break lang naman kaya maikli lang to.

Nathan : Sige next day simula na din ng school break namin. San ka naman tutuloy?

Bj : Sa Tita ko sa Quezon City.

Nathan : Okay sige, let's just meet up. I'll call you then. 

Bj : San mo ba planong magpunta?

Nathan : Siguro sa Puerto Galera na lang para malapit lang.

Bj : Okay sige, may kasama ka?

Nathan : Meron sana pero kung ayaw mo wag na lang.

Kinuha ni Nathan ang isang California Maki sa plato ni Bj at sinubo ito. 

Nathan : Namiss kita, sobra.

Bj : Ako din, namiss ko ang bestfriend ko.

Hinawakan nito ang kamay nya sabay ngiti. It has been a long time mula nung huli silang magkita. That moment habang nag-uusap sila, he would like to have it embedded on his soul. Hindi nya akalaing yun na din pala ang huling ngiti na makikita nya sa mga labi nito. 

Itutuloy....

Till  Next Time,

Diosa

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